I'm Lost......

Cillia clung to him, tears rolling down her cheeks. She kissed his cheek, his neck, anything she could reach. "I'm scared of being without you," she whispered in a trembling voice. She wasn't sure how to stop his trembling, but she knew her heart felt pretty much the same way his body did.

Andrew kissed her back, trying to push the trembling away, but the feelings caused by the kisses only proved to make it more violent. Finally he jumped away from her, a apologetic look on his face as he gripped himself as the trembling racked his whole body. "Don't want to hurt you." He managed.

Cillia watched him with pained eyes, not liking that he had left her sitting alone on the bed. "How can I help?" she asked, moving a little slugishly to get out of the bed and get whatever he needed.

Andrew closed his eyes and backed away, his back hitting the wall he tried to keep her from getting too close. His wolf growled in his mind as it fought for control. It didn't get out very often anymore. Trying to push it away Andrew gripped himself tighter as he glanced up at her slowly, pain racking his body from keeping the shift away. "I just need to calm, getting worked up isn't something I usually allow myself to do. It isn't good for those around me when it happens, people get hurt."

Cillia watched him, not liking what was happening. "H-how can I help calm you down?" She asked as she slipped out of the bed, wobbly on her legs as she stood there, trying to steady herself, though kept her distance so as to not make anything worse.

"I'm not sure." He managed through gritted teeth. "If that will help now, I think its too far." He glanced at the door across the room. "Just, please open that. I can't keep it away much longer." The wolf snarled in his mind, forcing its way into control.

Cillia nodded, stumbling towards the door and opening it widely. She let her clothes drop as her body disapeared so she wouldn't get hurt. "Just come back to me ok?" She asked quietly as she moved away from the door unseen. "I love you."

Andrew nodded as he let his hands drop. "I promise, I, I love you too." Then he let go, shifting into the form of a large Redish brown wolf and taking off out the door.

Cillia closed the door after him, a tear slipping down her cheek as she turned on the radio. She turned it up so it drowned out the silence, and went to take a hot bath, needing something to relax her.

Andrew wasn't aware really of anything going on, the shift of a born shifter different than that of a made one like Lana. It was hours later when he finally managed to get control and make his way back to Cellia.

Cillia, after listening to her heart and it's sluggish lurches beneath the water, she slipped out and dressed in her under clothes, figuring she'd finish getting ready later. She stood in the bathroom as she dried her long blonde hair, her mind wandering, the radio playing Hungry Eyes in the background.

Shifting outside the room Andrew stumbled in tiredly, his eyes gleaming a little as he saw her. A small mischievous smile on his lips he came up behind her and wrapped an unsteady arm around her waist. "I'm back." He murmured as he kissed her neck.

Cillia stopped drying her hair and let her towel down so she could see him. She smiled and turned around, kissing him gently. "Well hey there Back," she winked at him, her smile soft and almost tired. "I'm Cillia. What brings you here?"

"I'm in search of a beautiful girl." He declared holding her close. "And I believe I just found her. " He gave her another, deeper kiss.

Cillia blushed a deep red as she kissed him back, her arms wrapping around his neck. "If my lover finds you, you'll be in trouble," she murmered between kisses. She wasn't exactly sure what to call him. He was a lover, but so much more. It would sound corny to say 'my other half.'

Andrew smirked as he kissed her back, "Then I'll guess that we better be careful that doesn't happen." He told her and rested his hands on her hips as he kissed her deeper even.

Cillia smiled her brow raising slightly as she kissed him back. Her body swayed slightly with the music, her fingers entangling themselves in his hair. "Yes, I guess we will," she murmered between kisses.

Andrew began to dance with her, his bare body pressed against her barely clothed one. Clothing wasn't something that went with him when he shifted. His fingers hooked around the edge of her underwear as he kissed her slowly.

Cillia smiled slightly as she kissed him back, her hands sliding down his chest and arms to his hands, bringing them up to her back as she danced with him. She liked dancing with him. She pressed her body to his, moving slowly with the music.

Andrew smiled in return and held her as he moved with the music, he was content to just dance with her. He....loved her. He really did. "I love you." He murmured and kissed her lightly as they danced.

Cillia looked up at him, smiling widely. "I love you too," she said quietly, kissing him back and moving his hands back to her hips, her arms wrapping around his neck. "I will always love you," she said against his lips, her voice soft.

Andrew nodded, his eyes happy but serious. "As I will always love you." He kissed her deeper as his thoughts when to the one thing that might seperate them. He had to find her a heart. He had to find Lana.

Cillia kissed him back, lifting herself up and wrapping her legs around his waist. She didn't want to ever loose him. Her fingers embeded themselves gently in his hair, her kisses turning hungy.

Andrew kissed her back, his lips meeting hers with passion as he carried her over to the bed. His wolf made the comment in his mind that she was theirs. He growled at it mentally and laid her down. She was her own. Not his. If she wanted to leave he would let her. That was the difference between the two.

Cillia smiled as she cuddled him, kissing him back with just as much passion, her body pressed to his, her legs still wrapped around his waist. She let her hands wander down his body, below his waist.